Learning Too Late

On Wednesday, I did jury selection for an attempted murder trial. I did not do as good as I would have liked to. Again, I did not feel a connection with the jury. Once we got down to the second panel and then the third, the jurors were tired and crabby. Most people do not understand that this is a process, and we can not reveal anything about the facts of the case. The next day was opening statements, which I gave, and then witnesses for the State. I didn't think my opening was good and we ended the day on a bad witness which I was trying to avoid. Friday we did not accomplish anything because of a witness the defense counsel wanted who was out of town so the judge released the jury for the day. I feel as though the jury is upset and I feel as though they are not looking at us in a good light. My biggest fear is that we will get a not guilty and I am not going to take that well at all because it is a winable case and my victims deserve to win. I have been vomiting behind this case, not sleeping, not eating, and my nerves are so bad, its unbelievable. The trial will resume on Monday, and I have two separate victims in two separate cases who are fussing at me because I can not take their matter to trial on Monday. Eventhough they know I am in an attempted murder trial, all they could say was,"what about my matter?" I don't know how much more I can take. This job monopolizes all of my time, and all I get from every angle is criticism and complaint. Nobody sees what I do as a prosecutor day in and day out and it is hard to prepare adequately for everything on the docket day after day. Ultimately this contributes to my feeling inadequate and nonproductive. God help me....