Moving Day

Today after I left work, I helped my sister move into her new home. I am sure they are happy. I am happy for them as well. Work was not bad today. Although I spent practically all day in court, it wasn't so bad. I just have to find a way to make it through the next two weeks, then my Christmas break. I am counting down to my birthday. I still haven't decided what I want to do to celebrate. I don't think I will do the party as planned, but I will drink more than likely for the entire month. My brother in law good friend wants to go to a game with me. He said we could do that for my birthday. I don't have a problem with it, but he is a married man. I don't want to start a trend here. My phone is ringing. Will write later.

Work Day

Today I was able to sit at my desk and do some work. I got a good bit accomplished. I left work at about 5:30, went to the gym and now I will take a bath and read some of my files that I brought home. Tomorrow I hope is equally productive. I decided to call him tonight because I really feel like having sex. The fact that he is so good with oral sex, kinda makes me wanna go back for more. The last time we spoke it was some bullshit about he was going to bed early. But my selfishness is coming out right now and I want what I want from him. Then he can disappear up until I need him again for sex. He wants to hook up. I didn't make plans with him just yet. I figure I'd wait until my birthday to get a really good present from him. I am thinking in advance. I figure if I butter him up, he'll forget about that conversation shit and maybe we can go back to being fucking buddies. I am cool with that, I always was, but he wanted to throw the monkey wrench in and fuck shit up. I think enough time has passed and I hadn't met anyone new to take his place or add to the list. He gets first dibs cause he good with tongue. The dick not bad, but his tongue is a motherfucker!!

Rainy Day

Today was a rainy day in and out of the courtroom. I was in court all day conducting motions and fighting with defense lawyers. The judge had the nerve to ask me if we were almost done. We have damn near a 400 case docket. HELL NO!!!!!!! I left court at 1:30, sat in a CLE seminar for two hours, and then went back to the office to do more work. I missed breakfast and lunch. Right now, I am hungry, drained and exhausted and I have a memo due tomorrow. Just one more day before the judge will be gone for one week thanks to the holiday!!!!!!!

For The Record

I went to bed last night telling God that I have nothing to be upset about, depressed about or not satisfied with. My life thus far has not been like most people I have met or seen. I am truly grateful. I know I complain a lot about my job, but I keep in mind I have one. I know I complain a lot about my salary, but I have one. I know I complain a lot about men, but I have several. :-) All in all, I shouldn't be upset or angry because I have been blessed to achieve the things that I have focused on. In due time, I am sure more blessings will come my way. However patience is a virtue and it makes us stronger in our faith. No progress without tribulation right. Today wasn't bad. I will have to fight for the trial continuance of my life on an aggravated rape that is set for Wednesday. Eventually I will take this to trial, I just need to really work on my argument to give the defense lawyer the fight of his life. Until tomorrow...

Mentally Drained

Today was hectic once I arrived to work. A victim left a message on my chief of trials phone stating that we have not contacted him. Its not my file but I took responsibility since I am head of the section. Court was a bitch and I think everybody saw my frustration. I was being pulled in so many different directions today it was ridiculous. My docket has now reached 395 open cases. My head is killing me!!!

Timepiece

Well I went into the office but only to pick up some files and then I left. I came back home, ate some pizza, and then I went to gym with my sister. I worked on cardiovascular for 30 minutes. I left after that and realized that I needed my inhaler. Don't laugh at that and you know who you are! The fact that I needed it bothered me. I have never worked out before and needed to use my inhaler. We went by my sister's new home. Its coming along fine and they may be moving in next month now. Today when my dad came home, he told me that my grandmother had given him the watch that I gave my grandfather for his birthday a couple of years ago. I asked my dad if I could have it and he gave it to me. I wanted to ask for it long ago because I didn't have anything that was his. My dad has his rosary beads that my grandfather was holding when he died and I am sure my grandmother has all sorts of things that were once his. I didn't know how to ask my grandmother for it and I wasn't sure if they had placed it on my grandfather when he died. My grandmother said she started to give it to Jerome but she said he would have broke it. She let him wear it to the funeral. I would have been upset had she given the watch to him. But I have it now I am kind of happy sad in a bitter sweet sort of way. My sister asked me if I was going to give it to my dad. My response was no. I don't know if I am wrong for that, but I really want to keep it. I hope I didn't offend my dad because those were not my intentions, but that's just how I feel.

Off Today

The office allowed us to take the day off considering the holiday. But I am still going into the office just to play catch up on a few things. Technically my day hasn't started but I will treat it as a decompress mode day. I am still in search of a better paying job. Before I go into the office, I will see what may be available. I typically send in a wave of resume's at the beginning of eacy new year. I would have done the same thing this past summer, but I was extremely busy once I was promoted to senior. November 17 will mark my six month anniversary as a Senior. This coming April will make my two year mark with the office. In my own little way, I would like to continue at the office because of the experience that I am getting. But I don't think I can climb any further because I am not interested in being appointed to any supervisory positions in that office. But I think it is good to make an impression as being a veteran in the office considering the high turnover rate. I can at least say that I hung in there.

Cars and Attitudes

My dad bought a 2005 Camry. When I got there, some negotiations had been made. The asking price was $23,000. They settled at 18,975. At the interest rate they first offered, over a five year period my dad will have paid back close to 28,000 for the car. I bitched to high hell with those people. A total of 4 separate men came in to talk to me. One came close to telling me to shut up. I chcked his ass right there. He left after that. Through the credit union, my dad had an 8.00 interest rate. Toyota bought the car for $19,988. (so they say) I talked them down to $18,000 flat. (there is another story behind that one) Over a four year period, they will have made only $4000.00 off of the sale. How many Camry's can you get for under $20,000. My dad got an '05 for $18,000. That's about the going price for an '03 Camry. Its a very nice car. I wouldn't have bought, but I don't care for Toyota's. My dad was going to pay the ridiculous price. He really wanted that Camry, but I couldn't let him pay back that much money. Granted, you will pay back in interest more that what you are getting the car for. I understand that is how they make their money. But my dad was going to pay just because he wanted it. To me that meant negotiate a better price so that he could be happy.

Lunch

Today I woke up with the worst attitude. It was one of those mornings I was fed up with my job. Court was not too good and one of my victims appeared in court to bitch about a continuance with the judge. So, at first I started not to go to lunch just to stay in and play catch up because of trials I have set tomorrow. I decided however at the last minute to eat lunch with my co-workers and right in the middle of lunch I look up and see him coming through the door. Yes, it was him. I tried to ignore him but my co-worker asked who was the guy that her friend was with. I looked over and he was staring at me. We spoke and hugged each other just to be cordial I suppose, but needless to say I lost my appetite and wound up throwing my food away. Talk about a day.

Not A Happy Camper

So defense counsel moved for a continuance in the attempted armed robbery trial and my victim is angry as all get out. I did not expect a continuance, but it came. Anywho, I will just have to deal with it. Not much happened with me today. I am counting the days until the holidays because that would mean more time off from court. Sometimes I love what I do and then there are those moments when I just want to jump off the roof. Needless to say I have a ton of work that I have to prepare for court this week thanks to the continuance. I bought some pecan crunch ice cream so that should keep me happy for a few days. Next week I might find myself trying my first aggravated rape case. That one I don't think I can win because they are hard to win by nature. The defense will more than likely be consent and thus the jury may not believe the victim. That's just the way it happens unfortunately. The minister didn't call, not that I am complaining. I spoke with my friend Chris this weekend. I don't know why he and get along so well. For some reason, he and I have this chemistry that I honestly have never had with any other man. Strangely enough, I don't know if I could see myself in a serious relationship with him. Not because he is married though. I ask myself if he wasn't married, would I date him. I still don't have an answer to that question. But I do know if ever I need him, he is there no matter what. I tell him everything and I don't think there is anything he doesn't know about me. He is really a good friend. He is the closest male friend that I have and in college there were a few times he and I crossed the line despite his then girlfriend/now wife. Well I have work to do. Will submit later.....

So I Met Him

So I decided to be nice and go to the party just to say hello. I met the guy whom my colleague wanted to introduce me to. He is an attractive guy, but not my type. He has minister written all over him and I don't think I am on his level when it comes to spirituality. He and I are on different levels. I am more reserved and he as a minister is more open. I don't think we would mesh very well because of it. Not to mention some of the other factors that he may have in his past that I am not ready and willing to deal with in this stage of my life. I am preparing for an attempted armed robbery trial that I don't feel like doing. I don't think I can win and my level of enthusiasm is extremely low. Aside from that, I had new speakers and an amplifier installed in my car. Because I am not all that impressed with the sound, I will have to enhance the enhancement. Talk about being a sound/music fanatic. This is my Christmas gift to myself. There isn't anything else that I want this year. Anyway, off to another week of trials.

Life?

Life is strange sometimes. In the middle of this year, I thought I wanted a relationship. Something meaningful. And I also thought I wanted a child. But somewhere in August, things changed. I now enjoy being single because when I look at most of my friends who are either married or dating, they are not happy. It seems so much easier being single. I don't have to tolerate the mood swings nor answering to anybody. And children. Well let's just say I am not as eager anymore. I guess my point is, the things that we think we want are really based upon what other people have or what other people say we should have. And life doesn't work like that. At least mine doesn't. Don't get me wrong. I too like other women get a bit lonely, but after a while, that shit wears off.

My Day

My day was fine. I got a few things accomplished. I was able to sit down at my desk and work. After I finish posting this, I will resume my work until it is time to go to bed. A fellow attorney called me today and asked if I would meet someone he knows. I had my reservations at first and was against it totally. But I said to myself to at least listen. So, I did. What I found out about the man is that he is a general manager of a physical therapy type center, ex navy man and looking for someone. So naturally I asked what's wrong with him. I was told he was a good man looking for a good woman. That only meant ask my own questions to get the answers I am looking for. Come to find out this man is also 33, divorced, a child (at least one), and is a minister as well. Needless to say I snobbed that one. I was then asked to at least meet him and say hello this saturday at a birthday party I have been invited to. I still have my reservations, but I guess I can be polite.

Same conversation, different day

She struck again.... My mother has managed to ask me twice this week so far about marriage and a kid. Not that I am keeping a tab of how many times she has asked, but I don't even have the energy to respond anymore. I was talking to my sister about my decision to get an apartment over a house because I would prefer to hava a higher income considering I am actively looking for another job. My instincts are telling me to be patient and the right job will come along. I also decided on the apartment because I need a place to put my furniture and I need time to myself after work. Coming home to my parents complaining everyday is becoming hard to ignore. So as I am telling my sister about my decision, my mon says to me if I were married, I could aford a home. I am really getting tired of the "married with children" question. I have decided just to get the apartment when the new year begin. I will take the remaining of the year to help my parents with their bills, pay more on my furniture, and by February I should be in my own place. Another influence in my decision is that I would like to build my house. I have an ideal of what I want, but I want to make sure I am in a position to build what I want the way I want it. I think I can wait on the home of my dreams, if nothing else.