Going Through The Motions

Well, I came down off of my high from yesterday with it being my birthday and all. I had an attempted first degree murder motion today. The defense counsel was good. Though she asked a lot of irrelevant questions and the judge overruled my objections. He overruled about 90% of my objections. This case has me and the police officers puzzled. The victim who is able to talk is not being forthcoming about the chain of events that occured the night of the shooting. Why would your friend of so many years (practically all of your life) just shoot you. She has told the police a different story and she has told me a different story. I am just waiting until I can get more information before I can approach her with it. My two new juniors are working out well so far. Yesterday I tried a Possession With The Intent To Distribute Marijuana with the junior who has been in there with me the longest out of the two and to my surprise he did really well. He is a lazy guy but when he HAS to perform he will. I think he is getting used to being in trials. I just have to get the other junior there. I explained to them that this is a life and time altering process that takes time getting accustomed to. Lord knows it took me a while. Everyone see a change in me. I am more aggressive in court, I fuss with people now, I don't offer deals and more and more each day, I like what I do. I guess its because I am learning and feel like I am growing in my profession. I still do not have a concrete roadmap past the DA's office. I am not sure where I want to plant my feet. I guess I will just coast for a while and go through the motions. Someone told me the other day I should start looking for something else because this job is taking a toll on me and I am becoming more distant and less trusting of people. I think he is right for the most part. But that's because my eyes see so much now and I am in a position to help/change. Therefore, I am skeptical of people and what they are capable of. Yeah its a problem for me socially, but that's just what I do I suppose.