Last Week

All last week, I fussed with both defense counsel and the judge. Thursday must have been the worst day of all. Other people in the courtroom found it entertaining. The comments I received was, "You used to be quiet. Now we can tell you have been with the office for a while because you have gotten fiesty. We like that." Needless to say, next year is busy already. January is horrible. But I will try not to think about that right now. I have three weeks and hopefully I can relax.

Last week was also filled with Christmas parties that I attended. Our party was off the chain. I got to give it to old Eddie. He threw a good party. I drank so much it was a good thing my car was in the shop. I followed the crowd to Ike Spears party that was extremely packed. In my sober state, I did not want to go to the party because I knew I would see someone there. But due to my drinking and following everyone, I totally forgot. As soon as I stepped in the door I heard my name. Yes it was him. I looked and he walked over and hugged me. He said something to me but I wasn't really trying to hear him. I walked off my crew headed for the bar. He walked past me, looking at me. I ignored him. He then came up behind me, said something in my ear, I ignored him of course. Way across the room I would look up inadvertly to see who was at the party and I caught him watching me. A co-worker of mine asked me who is the man that keeps looking at you. I asked her who was she talking about. She told me when to look after he turned his head so that we wouldn't be obvious. I told her my ex. She said so that's why he keeps staring at you. I really had nothing to say to him. Not that I am angry or upset with him, but I just feel like we really have nothing to talk about. For some reason I feel like he is a complete stranger to me and I didn't have that desire to talk to him. I used to like his company because he made me smile and laugh. But now I view him as the joke. I watched how he would laugh out loud or talk out loud while he was with his friends that night, but all I saw was someone who wanted my attention and just doesn't now how to get it anymore.