My Break

I have been off from work going on two weeks now. My immediate supervisors became aware of what was the source of my anger that they told me to take some time off. This coming Monday I will return to work taking an armed robber and purse snatcher to trial (another black male by the way). My immediate supervisor asked if I wanted to take more time off and I declined. I think I should get back into work. She told me if I needed more time to let her know, but I think going back to work is best for me. Overall, I am a little more like myself mentally. I have my moments I will admit, but I am ready to get back into practicing law. I was speaking with my best friends' boyfriend and I shared with him something I have been talking with myself about. I told him I no longer wanted to date black men. We were having a general conversation about black people and I guess that prompted me to telling him how I feel at this stage. Its not that I think I will never be attracted to black men ever again in life. But they are not at the top of my preference list any longer. I guess based on my experiences with them, (work and personal) they just appear to be useless for the most part. I guess I got a sense of validation when I heard my friends' boyfriend and my dad say, "N-----s are useless and they don't want to do anything". Ironically they both said that yesterday which reinforced what I have been thinking. Yesterday, another motorist hit my car. He wanted to make it out like it was my fault. He had no insurance and was trying to leave the scene. I couldn't believe him. Here I am, like other honest paying citizens, paying for an accident that wasn't my fault. I have to pay a $500.00 deductible to repair damage I did not cause. The nerve of him trying to not take responsibility for his actions. That is the number one headache I have with black men. They do not want to take responsibilty for anything. I am truly starting to hate them!