Hurricane

Last night was somewhat scary for me. In spite of not having to deal with the wind or rain from the hurricane, I went through one of my anxiety moments. It all started around seven o'clock last night. I fell into this mental hole and I found myself feeling like I was going crazy. I couldn't sleep, I started to panic and I couldn't stop crying. I found myself sleeping on the floor because I didn't want to be in my bed. At about two o'clock in the morning, I decided to get back into my bed and I was extremely restless. I didn't fall asleep until about five o'clock in the morning and by that time it was almost time to get up for work. My head is still hurting and I feel a little disoriented. I don't know what prompted last nights episode, but it took a toll. For a brief moment, I was so angry that I started hitting the wall. Maybe I just need to relax more. I have been tucked away in my office since I arrived at work. I have my door closed hoping that will keep people away. On a brighter note. I purchased Missy Elliots' new cd. I like everything on it. I would reccommend it. R. Kelly cd sucks. I should have known that. I also bought Will Smith's cd. I like everything on that one as well. In my own little way I like him because I think he is intelligent and multi-talented. He has come such a long way and he seems to persevere very well. He also seems well grounded and appears to have mastered the art of peace so it seems. Besides, I think he is a talented writer. Will write again soon...