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I visited the psychiatrist last week and I must admit I thought she was extremely good. She said that I have all of the symptoms of post traumatic stress disorder and she prescribed zoloft and ambien. My frustration came when I had to foot the bill for the medicine. Not only am I paying out of pocket to see these doctors, I am also footing the bill for the medicine. What in the hell am I paying health care benefits for!!! Nothing is covered under my plan. But I will no longer complain about that. I have not purchased the medicine yet. I have an appointment with my therapist on the 29th of this month and I have to go back to the psychiatrist on the 2nd of September. I am thinking about relocating to another city. For some reason I don't think there is anything in this city for me. That includes both career life and personal life. I love my friends and family but at times I get really depressed about my situation and I feel like I need a change. I don't know what to do. Something else crept up in my head the other day. In eight months I will have been single for ten years. My last relationship was in April '96 and I have not been in a relationship since that. That is bothering me for some reason. I almost think it is pathetic. Will write soon....