My Week Back In Session

This week in court was not bad at all. Only draining. My new junior had two trials. One judge the other jury and she lost both. I told her that she did fine and that it wasn't her fault. The witnessess were just bad. She really did an excellent job in my opinion. I just hated to see her lose her first two trials. It devasted me when I lost my first two judge trials, so I can imagine how she feels. Other than that, my therapy sessions have been going good. My therpist wants me to get the psychiatric evaluation for medicine. She thinks my situation is getting worst in terms of the depression, anxiety, and post traumatic stress, but she thinks I am making affirmative steps to help myself. After next week, she will have to take a two week break to take care of something for her career and she is offering to see only a few of her clients and she offered to see me. I told her that I didn't want to impose on her taking care of her business. She almost insisted but pulled back because she probable didn't want to force me to come in. She also stated that she did not want to go that long without seeing me because often times when she takes a break that long from her clients, the clients tend not to come back. I guess she was trying to avoid that with me. But I told her I will return because I have to update her on the evaluation I am going to on the 16th of this month. She just smiled and said that's right. I am still not sleeping well at night, but I guess I will be like this for quite some time until things get better. At my last session, we discussed quite a bit. She had a lot of questions for me, and pointed out the times when I did not answer her questions. All in all, the session helped me analyze some things and question other things. Maybe I am learning myself after all....