No Time Soon

It appears as though we will not be back in the city for quite some time now. I really do miss parts of my life in the city. The only thing I really want to do is get back to my therapy. My job still has not made any cuts from the lawyer list. The boss has cut from the support staff, investigative staff and the administration staff. The attorney staff should be next. That will dictate how I plan. If he doesn't cut me, then I will stay and resume my therapy. If he cuts me, then I will have to figure out something else. I was speaking with my friend again tonight. He told me he missed me. It came as a shock to me and I got quiet. He asked me if I heard him and I said yeah but I was just shocked to hear him say it. There was a part of me that missed him too, but I didn't want to tell him because I didn't think he felt the same way nor wanted to hear it. I was honest with him and stated that I missed him too. He followed with he misses other things about the way his life was and he said he was sure there were other things that I may have missed more than him. I think that was his way of covering up additional conversation about what we shared with one another. I wasn't ready for any additional conversation. I was content with knowing that we mutually missed each other. To me it was the first time I experienced reciprocated feelings from a man. Even if it was a friendly I miss you from him, it was the same from me.