Decisions

What I do know is that I want to see him. I want to hold him, hug him, kiss him, and do the things that we normally do when we are together. I want to see him because I miss him. I am concerned about him and I guess I want to be a comforter to him. But I need to keep in mind that when I take this trip, that I am spending time with a friend. I shouldn't read more into it than what may or may not be there. I should embrace the thought that he wants to see his friend who he hasn't seen in weeks. I shouldn't look at this as his way of opening up and saying that he wants to be in a relationship. I think I should just go there, enjoy his company, enjoy the city, and just relax with him. That is a good idea. Just relaxing and not worry about anything else. I can't force a relationship, but I can live in that moment. That moment of feeling wanted . That moment of him wanting to spend time with me and see me despite what has been going on. That moment of him wanting to be with a friend. That moment of him wanting to be with me and me wanting to be with him. Its in those moments that we find peace. And those very same moments could give birth to more cherised moments if we are both willing. As it stands, I am willing. In this moment I am willing to make arrangements to fly to a city that I have never visited and spend time with my friend.