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Thursday, December 08, 2005

Good News Bad News

The good news is I enjoyed my birthday. My co-workers gave me a surprise birthday party and a $175.00 gift certificate to Tower Records. I was truly caught off guard and that certainly made my day. Bec I have to say that you truly have a way with words that enables a person to see things clearly. Trucker I appreciate the support and encouragement that everything will be okay. Thank you to both of you.

However, the day took a turn for the worst. The wellbutrin that I started taking this past Monday began to kick while I was at work. I was sitting down reading a file when my hands began to shake uncontrolably. My speech was affected as well because I would stutter trying to finish sentences but my nerves were preventing that. I became upset at that point and had to force myself to not cry about it. I called my cousin, who is a nurse, and she told me that feeling that way is a side effect. This lasted practically for the remainder of the day. I was also upset because if my doctor decides to take me off of the medicine should the symptoms not go away, then I will have wasted $115.00. So, I got past that and went home and my dad treated me to dinner. As we were leaving the restaurant around nine o'clock a good friend of mine called. The person whom I play pool with. She was in a car accident and her car was totaled. She only complained of neck pains and she too could not stop shaking. I stayed with her at the hospital until three o'clock in the morning when she was released and I had to find an all night pharmacy to get her prescriptions filled for her because when the medicine the doctor gave her wears off, she will feel the pain and I didn't want her to be in pain while she waits for someone to go get her prescription filled. I made it home at five o'clock and I slept for a few hours. I have decided to go to work. I took the medicine this morning and I am feeling the same effects along with some additional side effects. I started to cry again because it seems like nothing is working and if anything, the medicine is causing me to think about the rape more often. If I stay at home, I will be depressed and I don't want to cry again. I will continue to take medicine to see if things change for the better. If things do not change, then it will prove to be time and money wasted.

3 comments:

truckdriver_sefl said...

Wow that is so cool about your birthday suprise! Mmmm new cd's that a good thing always. I love music. It is like a diffrent language and there are diffrent songs for diffrent moods. The meds well I am a meds dummy so thats one I cant help you with. I will say it is most likely the best thing to take them for ahwile to see if the side affects stop.Again Happy Birthday:-}

truckdriver_sefl said...

The deal has changed Bec. Poet is now the writer You take the pictures and I drive the bus on the book tour.

ghostwriter said...

You guys are too crazy. I am sorry I deleted it. I guess I will have to repost it. I didn't think anyone would miss it. I honestly didn't think anyone else would read it. But I do like truckers idea though.:-}