The One Year Mark

For the most part, today was overall a good day. There were moments when I reflected on what happened a year ago, but it didn't prevent me from joking or smiling today. That felt good. This morning when I woke up, my mind instantly went to what happened and I felt like I was reliving the whole incident again. I cried for a few minutes. Afterwards I got up, got dressed and headed out for work. But still, I had a good day. I went to my counseling session today at three and we discussed how I was feeling about today. But my anger came when I began to discuss rape cases on my docket and the fact that I still feel inadequate when it comes to prosecuting those cases. I left the session frustrated. But when I got in my car, I decided to not let it ruin the rest of my day. I turned on my cd player and I started to feel better. Music is my escape. I love it. My counselor wants me to consider going back to therapy twice a week. I might do it. I like the sessions and I would like to contribute to that office as much as I can because it helps people who can't afford the high priced counseling. I really thought that I would be depressed for most of the day. But I wasn't. I have not only my counselor or my supporting cast to thank. But I have to thank someone who I have neglected for a year now. And that's God. Till then....