Out Of Proportion

I have reached the realization that I need to lose weight. For some reason, I don't want to do it alone however. I figured I'd talk to my best friend about it. She typically motivates me to do things; even when I don't want to. Well needless to say, she said that we will do it together. I figured since we are practically the same height and in my opinion almost the same in size, then maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea. Well she has decided to give up drinks that are loaded in sugar. I have decided to not only add exercising to my life, but to diet well also. The problem with me is that I don't cook. I am sure I could shed tremendous weight if I purchased food to cook. I also want to reduce my alcohol intake because that has a high sugar content as well. So I started my plan tonight. Tonight I did stretching and exercise with my weights. It only involved upper body however. I figure if I am able to get out of court at a decent hour tomorrow, then I can go to the gym and fit in cardio. I reached this revelation when I woke up this morning and simply didn't like the way I looked. Not to mention, I think exercising will help me decrease my stress level and depression. I have a goal. By the end of two weeks, I want to be two pounds lighter. I know that isn't much, but I don't want to disappoint myself with high numbers of weight loss and not see the results I am hoping for. I would lie and tell people I want to lose weight to look good in my bikini this summer, but people who know me know I don't go swimming. I just want to feel good physically, and right now I don't feel that way. I know I am supposed to feel comfortable with the way I look in terms of being able to accept myself, but I have to consider health reasons such as diabetes and high blood pressure. I am not obese but there isn't anything wrong with wanting to look and feel healthy. I believe I can do it. I did it once before at a time in my life when my confidence level was high. I truly think my lack of confidence and stress plays a part in how I physically look. I need to change so much about me for the better. Last week was a bitch, but I think I am pulling myself together again to get back on track. Here goes.....