It's Over, Moving On

So Ray Nagin won. Not that I am happy, but I can't do anything about it now. I voted for the other candidate who lost by a slight margin. All we can do now is sit back and see what unfolds over the next four years. Other than that, I am moving into a new place in the city. I will be living with my sister and her husband in an apartment until they finish rebuilding their home. I believe that may be a matter of months before their home is finished, but one thing I have realized over the past few days is that I want to buy a home. I am tired of apartments and not investing in myself. The only thing is I don't know where I want to live in the city. I would like to build my home. At least that way I know I will get what I want. If a pay raise is in my future as the office and the legislature says it is, then I will truly start looking for a home.

There is nothing new on the dating scene for me. I think that is largely because neither myself or my friend is trying to do anything to tread those waters. I am not pushing or promoting anything. For some reason, everything still feels uncertain in this city. For the most part, people I know are not to sure if they want to settle hear. My friend has stated that if things didn't change for him in terms of a job then he is California bound. I certainly can't blame him. There is no stability here for anybody right now. I have a pretty safe job than the next person.. One thing we can count on in my field is crime. Sad to say but it pays the bills for many of us. If he leaves then I wish him well. If he stays, then I wish him well. For the most part, I think he wants to relocate to California. As for me, I am not sure what I want. He and I have gone out and had fun, but I am so damn back and forth when it comes to men and relationships its ridiculous.

The job is the same. I haven't moved to the homicide division yet. Everyone keeps asking me about it and congradulating me on the move. There is so much work to do on those files and I am sure the families of the victims are upset that no one is working on their files. The office moved into a new building. Its in a good location but its not near the courthouse. I am looking forward to the homicide position. I just hope I do well and look good on the camera. (smile at that one)

Therapy is still going good. I might be making some major break throughs. Time will tell. On Tuesday I will start an exercise to begin talking through what happened in order to accept what happened and not let it run my life. There are some other things I want to talk to my counselor about. I will write about that later. Oh and before I go. Guess what I had an opportunity to do the other day? I hadn't done it in so long it felt soooo goooood. I mean the thought alone had me anxious to do it. Yes I shopped for clothes. Why what did you think I was talking about? I have three suits for court. Hopefully I will be able to buy more since this is a holiday weekend. But for those of you who have a dirty mind and thought I was talking about something else, I wasn't as fortunate to do that. Hopefully that day will come soon too.

Have a good one.......