My Eyes And Ears

I think if people could see what I see when my eyes are open and closed, then they wouldn't like life. I think if people could hear screaming in their ears, and laughter from a horrible source, then they would only want to hear only music or silence. I don't sleep often, but when I do, I am so scared of what I see and hear. My decision is coming. It is just a matter of what side will control.