Too Heavy To Carry

I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to make anymore decisions because making decisions only put me in a place where I don't want to be. Throughout my life I have alienated people for two reasons. One reason is I don't know how to keep people in my life. The other reason is I don't realize that I am doing it. I have managed to successfully keep anyone away from me who might want a relationship with me and now I have managed to push away the only person who has been here on this earth with me since I have been living. The sad part is I don't know why she doesn't want to be around me anymore. I came to realize that I don't have anyone consistent in my life anymore and it may be my fault. I am going to make one more decision and it will probably be my last. I will take the time I need to reach my decsion. Until then, let my life be an example of how not to live......