Pain Explained

Pain is defined as acute mental or emotional distress or suffering. For the past three weeks, I have felt pain from my job and my sister. I told myself that things would change over the weeks-maybe months; but that isn't so. Nothing has changed and the pain has increased beyond what I have strength to bear. How do I make sense of nonsense? How do I rationalize that which is irrational? How do I find logic in the illogical? How do I remove pain from my heart when my heart beats daily hoping for change? I don't want to cope with things. I want to change things. Unfortunately, that which is causing the pain is something that I can not change. Something that I do not control. Something that restricts me and forces me to wait on the next person in order to rid of my pain. Somebody once told me that happiness comes from within and only I can control my happiness. If that is true, then why is it that others hurt me to a point where I feel pain. If I controlled my happiness, then it wouldn't matter what the next person did to me because irrespective of what that person has done, I would still be happy. But such is not the case. If my sister would forget about all of this nonsense, and continue in the relationship that I have always known, then I would be happy in that aspect. But her acts of distance causes me to feel pain. If my employers were not so incompetent and selfish, then maybe I would be happy in that respect. Its amazing how I take the next person feelings into consideration, yet pain manages to exist in the air I breathe. Pain is the worst disease known to mankind. It can be inflicted verbally or physically. It knows no boundaries and it has no pity. Its equivalent to death. It happens to all of us.