Finding Commitment

I spent the weekend thinging a lot about myself and what I eat-or don't eat. I have reached the conclusion that I am not happy with my diet. In fact, I don't think I have ever been satisfied with my diet. That is inclusive of the period in my life when I would have considered myself to be a decent size. What I am trying to commit myself to is making better food decisions. Along with better food habits, I have started my pilates routine. My first step involved a ten minute routine targeting abs and thighs. THAT SHIT HURT LIKE HELL!!!!!! Those ten minutes made me understand what "out of shape" really means. Word to the wise. If you haven't stretched in a while, you might wanna start some time soon. I am sure my body will remind me of all of this in the morning. Anyway, my pilates dvd has like seven different ten minute exercise regimes targeting different parts of the body, and it also has a fifteen minute pilates workout. I have started on the ten minute workouts respectively. I haven't quite put together a diet that I want to practice. My intentions are not to remove my favorites from my dietary intake. I love chips too much for that. It's the healthy foods that I want to increase/implement in my diet. As everyone knows, I don't know how to cook. Therefore, essential vegetables and properly cooked foods don't make its way to my kitchen table. I am trying to change my way of thinking, eating, and living. I stayed home from work today and thought about this all day. I also slept for the most part, but that is neither here nor there. I needed to take some time out for me despite it being a workday. I am hoping this is something I can commit to because I typically don't stick to any one thing. I have always hated routinely doing things, but the truth of the matter is I need that discipline hanging over me. Otherwise, I get all out of proportion metally and physically. Wish me luck!!!