And Now......

This week and last week was not kind. I feel pressure coming from every angle and all I want to do is crawl in a hole and die. I am so tired of people expecting the world from me. I can't do it. I can't provide that much. I am running on E right now. All I have done for the past two weeks was drink and do drugs. This morning I didn't go to work and I didn't call in. I am back in this phase and I don't know how to pull myself out. Its so hard to say out loud what I am feeling, so I posted something on my poem segment to the right of this blog.