We Tried To Tell Them

I have been thinking about this for almost a week, but I didn't want to post anything and write in a negative tone about the situation. Last week a defendant literally got away with murder. The witness took the stand at trial and said she did not see the shooter in the courtroom. The reason why this annoys me so much is because this particular witness, along with another witness in a separate case, was the cause for our unit being disbanded. When our unit was screening the case, we recommended refusal because the witness and her mother were being a total pain in the ass, and the stepson of the victim was adament that he didn't see who was shooting at him. Never mind the fact that he told his dad (the deceased victim) to drive off because he "got a gun." That case was filled with a bunch of non-cooperating witnesses. However, our unit was made to look like we didn't know what we were doing. I am still somewhat sour about the whole thing, but I am getting better in terms of accepting that it happened. I am just waiting on the other case to come full circle because I am certain that will either result in a not guilty also, or be another dismissal.

Today I called in sick from work. I didn't feel like being bothered. I woke up in one of my moods. I slept the entire weekend which was the cause of me not taking any medicine. When I don't take that medicine, I swear I am a different person. It's almost like being Dr. Jeckle and Mr. Hyde. That shit is weird.

I went on my interview last week. I walked away feeling as though the interview went well, but I don't think I am the person to perform that job. I would hate to be the cause of the organizations' demise. There is way too much room for me to do what I want to do, and that isn't a good thing. I have come to learn in the past two years that I need rules, stucture, and deadlines. If I don't have at least two of those three things, I won't last very long in any profession or at any job. Also, I don't think I am at a point in my career where I want to stop practicing law. This job doesn't come along with anything remotely close to me practicing law. Don't get me wrong, the job has its perks. Positive ones I might add, but now is not the time for me to get into something like that.