And Another One

First, let me start by saying Happy New Year's to everybody. I didn't do too much to bring in the new year. My sister and I bought fireworks, put together some finger foods, bought some bottles for popping once the clock struck twelve, and we had a nice time. I brought in the new year with my family and played a few games on my nephew's Wii. I had fun with the bowling and golf games. I left there with the inspiration to buy my own Wii game. I made phone calls and sent texts to people I care most about to tell them Happy New Year's. I updated my Facebook to tell my Facebook friends Happy New Year's. If you didn't hear from me, then that means one of two things. Either I don't have your number, or you don't mean shit to me. Oh don't fell bad, it's nothing personal. Out of sight means out of mind to me. That will never change.

In hindsight of 2008, I'm realizing that the year flew by. I can only imagine how quickly 2009 will pass. In evaluation of myself on a scale of one to ten, I'll give myself only a six. I wasn't a good person last year, nor was I a good friend to many. In fact, I've allowed some people to exit my life without any explanation of my behavior. But what I have come to realize is that those who I've allowed to walk away, I don't think I really wanted them in my life in the first place. They were only there due to some extension of me. Not because they were a part of me. There's a difference. It all became too complicated. Too many people knew too much about me, and that was a huge problem for me. I've never been one to keep a large circle, but somewhere along the way the circle developed into having too many people on the inside. The more people in my circle, the easier it was for them to criticize me or my behavior amongst others in the circle as well. That too was a problem. The circle has now been reduced accordingly, so most are back on the outside looking in. For their sake, I hope the temperature doesn't drop any lower than what it is.