The Good, The Bad, The Mom

There is a lot I could say about yesterday afternoon. My mom came by, and unbeknownst to her, she upset me and insulted me. Without knowing who raped me, or that I was raped for that matter, she told me that his children were supposed to be her grandchildren. She told me that I was borderline psycho for seeing a psychiatrist and taking medicine. She also told me that I was gaining weight. Not to mention, she kept calling the man I have been expressing some form of interest in Jacob or Jonathan. As long as I have been single and made no mention of being interested in anyone, she constantly asked me about prospects when it came to men. Now that I have said the same name to her on numerous occasions, she says nothing about him, and just tells me to get pregnant without being married so that she can have more grandchildren. I tried not to let it bother me. I tried to hold it in as long as I could because yesterday was a big day for me, and I wanted to focus on presenting a birthday gift to the man that I have feelings for. But when I was driving to his house, all I could do was cry. I had to drive around until I stopped crying and my eyes were no longer red.

Even with all that, I regained my focus. My friend and I went to dinner, and afterwards we came back to my place and watched tv. Before I left my apartment to have dinner with him, I placed his gift in a gift bag and sat it on the bed so it would be out of view once we came back here. When we got here, I walked into my bedroom and he followed, but I didn't turn the light on. I turned on the tv and loaded the dvd player. As he was waiting, he looked over to the bed and asked, "what's that?" I said I don't know, and he looked at it again. Because the bag read happy birthday, he asked if it was for him, and I said yes. He smiled and gave me a kiss. He grabbed the bag and asked me what was in it. I told him let's open it and find out. He took the box out and displayed this big smile without even opening it. He finally opened it and looked surprised and happy. That moment was priceless to me. He told me that I was too generous and that I didn't have to do buy him a gift. As I helped him put it on, I told him I know I didn't have to buy him a gift, but that I wanted to buy him a gift. His bracelet fit well and he seemed extremely happy.

Despite the bad day my mom made me experience, it still turned out to be a wonderful evening afterall.