Not A Good Day

Yesterday as I was leaving work, I received a call from SBA. They want to approve me for a loan. I asked the lady how do I qualify for a loan when I am at least eighty-three thousand dollars in student loan debt. Not to mention a car I am still paying on as well as other credit cards. She said because I have good credit, I qualify. Under normal circumstances they would consider the amount of debt a person has, collateral, and the ability of the borrower to pay it back. I am in no position to pay back another loan and I certainly do not want to add to my already existing debt. This is so retarded to me. I really feel stupid for coming back to this city, staying with the office and most importantly going to law school. Higher education is truly a waste of time and money. What makes me angry is that there are people who get over on the government on a daily basis. There are people who lie on there taxes to get larger refunds, lie to the government to about their children being sick so that they can receive a check every month, as well as lie to get any other form of governmental assistance. Here I have been honest about everything and the only time I used governmental assistance was when I needed to go to school for undergraduate studies and I received a grant. Now when I am in dire need of governmental assistance due to a natural disaster and faulty man made levees, I have to get it in the form of a loan and pay the government back. Pay the government back to replace items I didn't even destroy. The very same government I faithfully pay taxes to every year is telling me I have to take out a loan to replace clothing and furniture and that is the only assistance I qualify for. If were uneducated, single with eight children, no job then the government would have been throwing money at me. Silly me for wanting to educate myself. Silly me for being honest in all facets and silly me for working so hard to have and maintain good credit. As far as I am concerned, every good deed is punished.